confession 9,037,264
i have issues
i woke up this morning
thinking about a song i sang overseas
warmed up close and easy with a man i didn't love
can't now remember the notes or the rhythm
did i like the way i sounded when i opened my mouth and was my heart really in it?
i can't remember
i can't remember how i even got to there with him
or how i dropped my guards
how i left them standing outside in the rain and didn't worry about whether they would survive the storm
they call that comfort
when a blanket of peace covers you in calm
when second guesses can't find their way to you cause you're shielded by your knowing
comfort
how did you find me and where the hell are you now?

ahhh, yes
you're at a bar lusting for trust while she sits three tables away
confidently flirting with, lusting for fear
to come into her again
and take her whole

she isn't the virgin she claims to be