"I'm a cold cold person."
"Why do you say that?"
"Because I am. I can like a guy a lot and talk about him everyday, but the minute he does something I think is remotely wrong, I'll just let go."
"Why is that?"
"Well I think it has a lot to do with my constantly being alone. I'm so used to being responsible for me and only me, I'm not used to having to care about someone else or their feelings. . . . Also, I think in what few relationships I have had, I'm used to being disappointed by the other person's lack of care for me. It always seems that the guys I deal with are not able or willing to deal with my responses to their actions, whether or wrong or just opposite what I would have liked. And I'm not even always trying to be right, but I do want to feel like my words don't fall on deaf ears, and that I'm being understood. And I think I'm so used to not getting that response (a receptive one) from guys, that I expect them to fail me. And I think that attitude I have comes out sooner than I intend for it to (though I don't even think I intend the person to ever know...the truth has a funny way of revealing itself) and the guys end up feeling defeated before even fully stepping up to the plate."

"Wow."
"What?"
"You seem to really know yourself."
"Yeah, well I've been single for a long time--not much else to do but get to know and love yourself, though I know I'm not right all the time. The question I'm constantly wondering is when am I going to change? and what am I going to change?. . .I really don't know the answer."