Forgive me if this has already been seen...I don't feel like looking back today, though it's obviously inevitable, what with this chain around my neck

A former lover found his way into my mind last night and since then i've been melancholy
i don't know if this piece I'm about to post was originally about him--i have a flightly heart, though I am realizing more and more that most of what I feel is lies...which could (and may) be troubling at some point, but i'll get to that when it comes back around

one thing i do know is I don't want to want what i don't want anymore
if you feel me just stretch your heart out this way--i'll feel you

anyway, these are my words
I hope whoever they were/are directed to can feel the feeling



I wrote you a poem last night as I lay unwanting in a lover's empty arms
It was about how much I love your smile
And how I wished his arms were yours
The ones that do the talking when your mouth doesn't quite catch the meaning And it was about how we don't have time to talk about little things like sex or stuff like that
But when we talk it's always about SOMETHING
Like words or color
Or the way I pronunciate a certain musician's name
And I wonder sometimes if you think I'm putting up a sign on front street just for your beaming purposes
What you may not have yet gathered
Is
I don't have the time enough to waste it
These nighttime escapades are simply me escaping the days of my life when I really do come home to
No one there
And no messages
No one cares
To check up on me
Jesus, friends, family
Sometimes it's all we got
But I'm hopin' and wishin'
Very soon to be prayin'
That I'll one day add to my anthem that ghostface tune
All that I got is you
And I'm so thankful I made it through