what does it feel like to lose a friend?

well let's see. . .

today was a friday
nice out
very little wind,
a breeze even
it is warm
and hardy noticeable

it's as if everyone is wearing red and you are wearing blue
or maybe they wear black and you wear gray
nothing too far off but you feel
different
and it bugs you all day

the loss of something you never could hold
but there's a blind spot and you start to feel like any car is ready to hit
you're rushed, but you're slow
and things are happening but you're not present

it's like living in alcoholism
life is blurring past
and you're feeling very detached
but the solution is not like math
you can't just add or subtract anything to make it look like it did yesterday
you just have to keep breathing and pretend like life was always this way

Copyright © 2006 by Arin Lawrence